Untung ada kaskus

Selang waktu setangah jam kemudian, tutup twitter, tutup formspring yang lagi error dari pagi, tutup plurk, invisible YM.

Iseng ngaskus....

Dan alhamdulillah, akhirnya aku ketawaaaaa lagiiii......UNTUNG ADA KASKUS!!

BE AWARE OF THIS ONE!
it's hurted so DAMN.. I MEAN IT






When i looked at the mirror, i saw this feeling....

I've been so caught up with my loneliness
that I'm not sure that
I'm willing to give up my freedom and all

He's nice and sweet,
take me for a comfortable and funny situation
touch my cheek like there's no tomorrow

Things goin on real fast,
I'm not sure that I'm ready for it all,
I might take a step off and run,
but if tat so,
I might never be ready,
so for now,
I might just stay and see where the flow will bring me

Deep down inside
I'm still heavily hesitate.
DAMN,
now I realised how damaged I am

Follow dan di Unfollow

Guys, tahu jejaring sosial yang bernama TWITTER kann?? Gw mau cerita sedikit nih tentang account gw di twitter, by the way bus way buat yang punya twitter juga, follow gw yaaa di klik disini

Nah, barusan gw buka profile gw ternyata followernya berkurang satu. Entah kenapa feeling gw ga enak, gw cek list lah follower gw dari halaman per halaman.

Daaaaaannn..ENG ING ENG, ternyata yang meng-unfollow gw adalaaahhh orang yang gw maksud di tulisan2 blog gw terdahulu. Yahh, you know lahhh (ala cincai lahh).

Dosa apa gw??

Padahal kemaren2 yang mengumbar komit buat tetap menjaga silaturahmi yaa dia ituu, ternyata sekarang malah gini. Secara gak langsung dengan dia meng-unfollow gw, gw ngerasa dia mulai mengibarkan bendera sok-gak-kenal, bendera bukan-teman-lagi, atau bahkan bendera permusuhan..

Gw cek list di facebook, ternyata dia masih jadi friend gw. Gw kira di remove atau di blocked. Entah ini memang enggak di block atau belom aja kali yaaa...

Yasuwlahh..saya ikuti saja apa maumu..Walaupun saya tidak dianggap lagi, tapi saya tidak memberlakukan hal serupa kok. Yahh, kalian bisa lihat sendirilah dan menyimpulkannya dari tulisan gw terdahulu, jelas tidak mungkin kalo saya tidak menganggap dia.

Semoga sukses yaa buat PDKT nyaa!! SEMANGAT!! :)

Glasses

Hola hola, mau sedikit pamer risda new looking, hehehe
Dari dulu pengen banget pake kacamata
berhubung mataku normal, jadi pake kacamata abal2 sajalahh


siap2 nyebur ke kolam

background-nya gudang (hehehe)

omw home sweet home (aka kostan)


Masihh ada lagi yang mau dipublis, tapi sabar yaa mas.. :))

Love is Blind or Blind is Love?

Setahun belakangan gw mengalami yang namanya kisah-kasih-yang-ga-jelas sama seseorang.

Sumprit deh, ini baru pertama kalinya gw mengalami yang kayak ginian. Pertama kalinya gw ngerasain jatuh cinta sama seseorang dan ketika itu juga saat dia dengan gamblangnya mengakui suka sama cewek lain di depan gw, gw malah memberikan support buat usahanya itu padahal gw miris, dan hal ini terjadi gak cuma sekali lohh.

Satu hal yang gw coba pelajari dari perjalanan gw yang sebelumnya dan gw coba terapkan ketika memulai komitmen, gw cuma mau buat dia bahagia gak peduli apapun yang terjadi sama gw. Mau gw ditinggalin gitu aja kek, mau gw cuma di jadiin default kek atau apalah itu, asal memang itu yang bisa membuat dia selalu tersenyum, OKEE i'll do it for you!

Tadinya gw kira perasaan yang kayak gituan cuma ada di sinetron-lebaynya-indonesia, tapi ternyata gw mengalaminya lohhhh!!

Apakah ini karena GW NYA YANG GILA atau CINTA ITU EMANG GILA?

Whatever it is, gw sih bertekad hanya mau menikmatinya, yah namanya hidup pasti ada proses dan jatuh bangun. Gw berusaha bersikap normal sebisa gw. Tidak berlebihan dan biasa-biasa aja. Tapi kalo gw pikir-pikir, apakah ini wajar yaa?


HUAAAAAAAAAA!! gw juga ga tahu kenapa bisa kek gitu huhuhuhu...

*jedukin kepala ke tembok*

It was such a GREAT FEELING, until... I saw some unpleasant signs. Gw tahu mungkin gw sendiri penyebabnya, atau emang sedari awal memang sudah begitu adanya, entahlah. Yang jelas sudah begitu banyak tanda kalau dia tidak punya perasaan yang sama kayak gw atau perasaan dia ke gw layaknya dia yang dulu gw kenal, bahkan lebih parah dari itu. More and more each day it's getting south, but still I don't wanna let go my feeling.

But those unpleasant signs was keep coming and hitting me on my face. Gw pikir, gw ga bisa terus-terusan begini. Gw udah punya banyak luka yang belum sembuh dan haruskah gw menambah luka baru lagi?

Mungkin bukan dia orangnya. Mungkin orang lain yang belum gw temui. Mungkin ada orang lain yang jauh-jauh lebih baik dari dia

If he's the one, I won't need to fight it.
Everything will just go right and we'll be united.
If he's the one, he'll be the one who chase me and confess his feeling first.
And let it be a sign from God that he's the one.

Then, in deep sigh, I whisper to the air.....

'I let You go....'

And I feel so relieve somehow, but honestly...
something inside my heart keep saying that he's coming for me.
I dunno....
But I feel better now, after I let him go.

Why Women Cry

**Copy it somewhere (hehehe)**

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.

His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up
and became a man,
still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God.
When God got on the phone,
he asked,
"God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:
"When I made the woman she had to be special".
I made her shoulders strong enough
to carry the weight of the world,
yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength
to endure childbirth
and the rejection that many times
comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness
that allows her to keep going
when everyone else gives up
and take care of her family through
sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength
to carry her husband through his faults
and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know
that a good husband never hurts his wife,
but sometimes tests her strengths
and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally,
I gave her a tear to shed.
This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God,
"the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman
must be seen in her eyes,
because that is the doorway to her heart,
the place where love resides."

Suddenly, I miss him so bad

03022010

Long and tiring day,
feel kinda empty inside,
empty and tired..

Checking up my bank account
and I'm totally happy,
The digits growing up from 5 digits into 6 digits!
Thanks mom,

I LOPE YOU POLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

..SK..KK..DAS..

my friend wrote this on her notes and...
i'm just *SIGH*!
yes, i know exactly this feeling, yeah EXACTLY just what i said
and then...

i find myself crying in the middle of my day...

some people say just let go

some people say forget him

some people say throw him away

some people say you don't need him

some people say he didn't want you anymore

but..

i say i can't let him go, he's so sweet.

i say i can't forget him and i won't ever forget him. never!

i say i don't need to throw him away, he just left me here

i say yes i don't know exactly who i need

i say yes i know he didn't want me, but i'm still here

i say i miss him, very much,
when i miss him i thought him,
when i thought him i just realize that i need him
when i need him whiches i do right now i get some feels and my heart say so.

may be i'm in love may be i'm stupid.
i'm waiting i do really care and i dont care what people say.
i just do what my heart said, where my heart beating so fast, who make it?
i know

its my time!

this is the time, till i got that i ain't good to wait anymore....

i just don't know what i do really want, i just ever think if i'm going here, is he feels sad?
he ever ask me some question. twice.

if he leave me alone, am i think he will just happy? i said i don't know.

then he closed his eyes and say : nope.
its hurting me so, you know???

now i'm laugh in my painful of missing someone who not miss me.
i just stand up. without moving. my mind, soul, heart and eyes making me crazier. day by day. they have they own answer.

i just miss him.

is that fault haa?

Mooon..daayyy

Yeah, hari yang aku nanti2 datang juga (bo'ong banget).. This is it, Hari pertama masuk kuliah di semester 6 dan liburanpun telah usai. WHOOOO-SAAH!!

Semester baru, resolusi baru, semangat baru.

Gak berasa sekarang aku udah semester 6 aja, it means insyaAllah setahun lagi udah jadi ILUNI. AMIENNNNNN!!!

Kuliah pertama di awali dengan kuliah anaperancis bersama pak IB jam 10 pagi, lalu lanjut lagi jam 1 kuliah MTI bersama mbak Puspita, tapi sayangnya mbak Puspita gak dateng, lupa kali kalo ada kelas..Huhuhuhu, gak jadi belajar deh akunya (padahal seneng) wekekekekekk..

Teman-temanku ga banyak berubah, ada sih yang berubah tapi cuma beberapa. Ada yang baru pake kawat gigi, ada yang baru ngecat rambut, potong rambut juga ada, ada yang hp baru, bahkan ada juga yang pacar baru..Nah aku??? *SIGH* yang ada malah masalah baru..ahahaha

well, hari pertama kuliah kesehatanku malah drop. Terserang flu yang menyebalkan, batuk kanji yang rese ditambah pilek yang kadang ada kadang kaga..

Doain aku cepet sembuh yaa guys..Biar bisa semangat kuliahnya