Suddenly, I miss him so bad

03022010

Long and tiring day,
feel kinda empty inside,
empty and tired..

Checking up my bank account
and I'm totally happy,
The digits growing up from 5 digits into 6 digits!
Thanks mom,

I LOPE YOU POLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

..SK..KK..DAS..

my friend wrote this on her notes and...
i'm just *SIGH*!
yes, i know exactly this feeling, yeah EXACTLY just what i said
and then...

i find myself crying in the middle of my day...

some people say just let go

some people say forget him

some people say throw him away

some people say you don't need him

some people say he didn't want you anymore

but..

i say i can't let him go, he's so sweet.

i say i can't forget him and i won't ever forget him. never!

i say i don't need to throw him away, he just left me here

i say yes i don't know exactly who i need

i say yes i know he didn't want me, but i'm still here

i say i miss him, very much,
when i miss him i thought him,
when i thought him i just realize that i need him
when i need him whiches i do right now i get some feels and my heart say so.

may be i'm in love may be i'm stupid.
i'm waiting i do really care and i dont care what people say.
i just do what my heart said, where my heart beating so fast, who make it?
i know

its my time!

this is the time, till i got that i ain't good to wait anymore....

i just don't know what i do really want, i just ever think if i'm going here, is he feels sad?
he ever ask me some question. twice.

if he leave me alone, am i think he will just happy? i said i don't know.

then he closed his eyes and say : nope.
its hurting me so, you know???

now i'm laugh in my painful of missing someone who not miss me.
i just stand up. without moving. my mind, soul, heart and eyes making me crazier. day by day. they have they own answer.

i just miss him.

is that fault haa?

Mooon..daayyy

Yeah, hari yang aku nanti2 datang juga (bo'ong banget).. This is it, Hari pertama masuk kuliah di semester 6 dan liburanpun telah usai. WHOOOO-SAAH!!

Semester baru, resolusi baru, semangat baru.

Gak berasa sekarang aku udah semester 6 aja, it means insyaAllah setahun lagi udah jadi ILUNI. AMIENNNNNN!!!

Kuliah pertama di awali dengan kuliah anaperancis bersama pak IB jam 10 pagi, lalu lanjut lagi jam 1 kuliah MTI bersama mbak Puspita, tapi sayangnya mbak Puspita gak dateng, lupa kali kalo ada kelas..Huhuhuhu, gak jadi belajar deh akunya (padahal seneng) wekekekekekk..

Teman-temanku ga banyak berubah, ada sih yang berubah tapi cuma beberapa. Ada yang baru pake kawat gigi, ada yang baru ngecat rambut, potong rambut juga ada, ada yang hp baru, bahkan ada juga yang pacar baru..Nah aku??? *SIGH* yang ada malah masalah baru..ahahaha

well, hari pertama kuliah kesehatanku malah drop. Terserang flu yang menyebalkan, batuk kanji yang rese ditambah pilek yang kadang ada kadang kaga..

Doain aku cepet sembuh yaa guys..Biar bisa semangat kuliahnya

New Day on Friday Morning

Pagi yang indah, tapi tak seindah hatiku.. *norak*

Cuaca pagi ini mendung, setelah diguyur hujan semalam...Sangat adeeem, dan tumben2nya gw gak ngebo pagi ini..

Hari pertama yang mesti gw jalani, setelah semalam mendapat kejelasan darinya..Ya walaupun ga jelas2 amat, at least gw bisa menyimpulkan sendiri dari obrolan kami semalam di YM..

3 Minggu tersisa sebelum akhirnya kuliah dimulai lagi, dan disisa waktu liburan ini gw MESTI bisa merepair semua ini..Belajar kembali bagaimana buat bangkit dari ini semua untuk kesekian kalinyaa..

Semoga saya bisaaa...

Risda gak boleh jadi cewek lemah, cengeng dan manja!

Compartmentalize..

Do you know when you need to compartmentalize your life?

Selalu ada lebih dari satu kehidupan yang bisa kita miliki sampai kita menutup mata untuk selamanya.

Kehidupan keluarga, kehidupan karier, kehidupan cinta, kehidupan persahabatan, to name a few..

Dan mungkin memang sebaiknya kita punya lebih dari satu. Because then, if one life fails, we still have the other.

Kalau merasa suntuk setengah mati di kampus, paling nggak masih punya harapan untuk tersenyum dan tertawa di rumah dengan keluarga, atau bersama pasangan...

Happy thoughts, ris...